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ramblings of a teenage guy

today is gerald n dine birthday so go celebrate got gd food n had funz(i went swimmin earlier).....its 2 bad i had 2 go 4 chruch after finishin the food ...but the greatest joy is worshipin JESUS


the joy of winnin the "badminton's champion leauge 2005" ...tats me holdin the trophy n my frens crowdin round me 2 taste the glory....hahahahahahahahahahahaha

the joy after winnin championship 4 badminton

i nw reallli dAMM angry......i have a stupid younger sister tat takes pleasure in discriminating me and a stupid elder sisiter tat helps her....dammit who cares man , someday the little pig will know whre her stupid n stubborn attitude wil lead her man ...i never wan 2 fight with her 1 but she always start ,but ppl always say its me who start the fight , the truth is she provokes ppl with her facial expression n mumbling scolding words in her mouth ,tats y i cant stand it then fight sparks offf.....n tat older sister dun understand also always help her 1 ...haiz dun wanna tok 2 them whole day liaoz :(

holidaze r hre? no......i still have 2 go back 2 sch first 2 weeks ...actually no need 2 go back 1 but miss leung change her mind then now need 2 go back 4 e.lessons 4 english n maths
work has realli taken a toll on me ...although its funz in a way ..its tirin ok !!!
i plan 2 quit within this week or next week n juz enjoy the holidaze
i goin 2 highlight my hair next mon at macs house..he say his mother give me discount(his mum hairdresser) then me christion bryan shaun hakim navin n azhari band members want 2 record an compilation of own songs incudin the famous anti racist song nw got:
punk rock version
accoustic version
hakim version
navin's scold back version


christon took this candid shot while i wa sufin da net .....tats my helpful y-f leader on the screen

today sch is borin got learn indian dance,anklong,kompung ........n got bach 2 bach concert (borin) . . "
today work was quite special tough , i got new partner tat amuses me
he is helpful ...effeicent but i notice sumthin about him
he every thirty sec must smile showin his teeth , n tat realli makes me laughx ...ahahahahaa then got my work attire ....then c the guy 4rom npcc i n zi jie saw at friendster at his hse (wad a coincedence)
hmm....work juz got better ........

:( my uncle once lent me a badminton racket
he bought in in 1989 and it was his treasured gift
he lent it 2 me 1 year ago
i used tat racket 2 play wid my frenz n once in a church competion
i grew 2 fond with tat racket
i played badminton wit church frenz after church
i sat a taxi home after tat
i suddenly remembered bout the racket 1 day later (which is 5 min ago)
i cant find it
i lost my uncles treasure
i lost my favourite racket
i lost both me n my uncle memories of tat racket
n i hate the feelin i have in me
actually im feelin happy
nw im in a saddest mood :(
i want 2 cry sob!!!

k i think ill post a blog since i have stupid factory work until 11 later so must as well blog nw.....ok i woke up as usual 6 n bath n brush then 630 went sch .....then reach pasir ris find veri funny tat dun have eben 1 haisian so i juz continue walkin then walk until halfway then realise 2day no sch...dammit so i walked back n saw another girl walkin 2wards haising :P stupid me

oh lord i pray with all my heart
nt 2 worry bout the bout the future
4 the future u hold n the best u give
let me understand ur will
walk the road u prepared 4 me

by ur grace i am saved
in ur love im loved
ur love is like the sun
That shines into the darkest place of my life
n warms up my heart
there is hope
cause there is u!!

yesterday was another day at fellowship early mornin follow mum go jurong point shoppin n bought n external hard drive...i saw a realli nice converse shoe tat i wanted 2 buy ...thinkin of quttin the factory work,come 2 think of it i don realli need the money now so must as well dn waste my youth.....then after jurong go meet elvin then together go play 2 rounds of daytona...then go y-f
y-f today speaker is de en
tokin bout hw 2 prove existance of GOD
nt realli listenin but nt ignorant
some parts still quite blur
nv mind i got notes 2 help me!!
hahaha :p
gotta think of games i still dun know hw 2 explain
sianz .....i sceard my games nt fun
then all sian sian
i rather be the one playin
then the 1 makin games

these few days realli crazy .....workin at factory is killin me ...im tired n im stressed(no such thing) bout results ...im afraid ill stay back...im afraid tat my future is over n im realli goin 2 work at the factory the rest of my life....but,tats nt the life i like ...i guess GOD wont wan me slavin 4 the factory 2.....i was relived 2day when i know that i passed english ..humans..chinese hmmm these three subjects is enough 2 promote me liaoz ..but im still afraid ...but y sld i fear ..GOD is wid me ...

2day nv go work at factory cause wana do somethin diff so when miss leung ask who wanna help at grad day i agreed (since i wont get a chance 2 grad must as well experince it a bit)my job is 2 distribute food ....my reward is free dinner ...n free takeaways ....by the way the food sucks!!!!

wad yesterday did 2 me..........
first time went 2 muslim fren home....rony hse ,drink bundong veri nice..he got cute brother tat looks lyk him
the =n christian n ron came my hse play guitar take stupid photo sing songs play games
then..............ying haw call me wanna work or nt
i say ok on impulse....then 2 hours later i was sittin in a production room doin factory work ...do until 11 o'clock sianz,everyday muz do hw 2 go y-f lyk tat
muz tok 2 the boss bout this
my hp no money sianz i wan 2 call n sms olso cannot

today last exam tml only got cme so no need study..so happy!!!:)
yesterday mum buy 4 me new camera cause got offer
n buy printer cause house need 1 ....wan 2 buy thing now i muz faster buy later results come out is doomsday hahaz
today go navin hse wid hakim christian n ron watch celebrity deathmatch
hahahaz damm funny played fifa 06 also win 1 time lose 2 times 2 hakim
actually 2day wanna give y.ying song 1 but cannot find her ....so go prakash hse
need a new external hardrive 4 my com runnin 2 slow liaoz .....

erm yesterday y-f go ice skating at jurong it was funz n quite experiencing ........(when i was writin tis post my father came in sayin tat im useless(again)onli know hw 2 take money 4rom him...haiz,actually tats quite true but im nt useless
n i know he knows it but he is (kou shi xing fei) .....aniway back 2 the ice skating part lolx it was funz i fell down alot of times cause my frenz all dun know hw 2 play then pull me down ...i ended up gettin more bruise then them :) then eat n went arcad play daytona n c nerd play ddr hahahaz bloody amusing

today went chruch ..know tat en shun is leavin us so feel quite sad cause i aso know her almost 1 year liaoz got the feelin already...will miss her in my heart hope she holds on 2 her faith..pray 4 her
uncle philip nv come today then we discuus bout future
wad i wanna be when i grow up, i have alredy said b4 in my previous blogs.....
today is very meaninful ..more then the usual "cha zing"which i found pretty ummm...frankly speaking nt realli useful on me cause actually i found out tat if we have discussions lyk 2day,we can apply it 2 our life directly on the problems we face n at the same tyme learn bout GOD's word..well its wad i think although it might nt be right lolx
n yes de en wan me 2 bible study wid eudora,charlene,yi ying
diaoz....highly impossible....but trust the power of GOD


lame pic (christan n me)

today veri hectic day ,after exam straight today very hectic sia, after exam follow y.ying 2 mac help her transfer song n i got free hashbrown 2 eat lolx :p then after tat christain come my house play n slack we took 1 stupid pic then played guitar a while then go meet hakim pok suey n ronny go bishan meet some girls i don know .....then when we first meet the girls they straight wan 2 take neoprints ...sia la paiseh sia all of us don dare 2 go take wid them hahahaz but after tat got sit down at mac then got to know each other better abit.....at least nv go home without doin anythin...ronny went home cause he felt sianz :( without him nt funz 1... then after chattin a while at mac 4 almost 45 min we said goodbye then i n poky go play pool wid zi yang zi hao n zi jie...then jie went home,n i n poky n hao ate jap food then go home watch tv (i wanna watch 9 o clock show) i still sceard i stay back le my future is ruined if i stay back AGAIN tis year ...haiz its my own fault even if i stay back tis year...cant blame no 1


haiz 2day i let navin heard the stupide song we made he lyk so sad sia
i feel so bad......muz not make this kind of song again haiz .....i was thinkin "wad kind of christian i am" haiz juz wanna say sorry 2 navin.p

2day physics was so hard,i was lyk thinkin k.....ur fate'sealed tres no hope
juz wanna fiish of this stupid exams...i feel so stressed(hey,there's no such thing as stress)right yang ting??im afraid tat ill nt be able 2 pass my exams...
y muz there be exams in this world? :p

yesterday,my family had supper together.....then my father asked me the question wad do i plan 2 do when i grow up,i didnt know hw 2 answer him
in this society if u dun have a cert , its hard 2 get a job ....so hw 2 answer him
if i say i wanna be a photographer ...ive gotta be the best cause thre so many gd photographers out there n many juz do it 4 fun nt as a job....if i get 2 go 2 set 4 n nt retain this year maybe ill get 2 go 2 ite n at least can take a course n at least learn somethin.....but if i retain again this year then ill quit sch n do who knows wad...haiz life sucks man juz hope i realli can do wad i realli dream 2 do ....it does nt matter if the income is low....at least i reali can do wad i realli lyk...may i follow gods will cause he will give the best 4 me....hopei can spread his word 2 the world...

im thinkin of the holidaes even b4 the exams r over .....
Q-wad if i stay back this year
ANS-i wld probably quit sch,its no use holdin on 2 somethin u cant grasp

Q-wad if i managed 2 get thru this year
ANS-then ill strive on 1 more year then go 2 ITE

Q-wad wld i do durin the holidays
ANS-depends,ill probably juz slp thru it(jokinO=) find sumthin interestin 2 do

Q-wad if i get 2 go aboard
ANS-ill be so happy....shit wad if i got conditional promotion then i have 2 go back 2 sch durin the holidays EVERYDAY!!!!!

Q-wad if i dun stop bloggin n get down 2 serious studyin
ANS-then itll be my nightmares come thru....no....no......no.......................


i was juz listenin 2 the song forever young by alphaville.....n i happened 2 stumble on this ol pic hahaz i was so fat last time n my sis was so thin ..nw reverse she fat i thin...lolx yeah ,love my childhood

i think tat the biggest problem with has gotta be my pride
i must learn 2 be humble and 2 accept my mistakes
instead of tryin 2 deny tat im wrong(i mean if im realli at fault)
n i must learn 2 think of the feelins of other people
but some things cannot be compromised
if that's the truth ...then it's the truth
there's no way im goin 2 change my mind


went 2 watch movie wid zi hao 2day(the myth)
veri nice fantasy action packed flick
was so into the movie man
but after the show its back 2 the harsh reality of this society
haiz.....the exams r 2 more days
and im still nt in the mood 2 study

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