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ramblings of a teenage guy

juz writin down some of the things i feel durin this 1 week of sch which makes me feel sad or happy in some way or another....(im nt referin or tryin 2 pin-point any1,juz statin my views) it may nt be right!!

y? i dunno y ppl lyk 2 use eyes 2 look down on other juz cause they are nt sort of in the "cool" group...they nt human meh?y give them tat kind of eyes tat says tat they are despised ...veri hurtin u know...i see some of my frenz "bullyin" or makin fun of those ppl tat actually veri kind in nature 1 , realli nice ppl 2 hang round wid...juz hope tat we all can live life happily without passin judgements on others juz cause u dun know them....i tell u , it realli dun feel gd....nt sayin i dun pass judgements n ppl aso...im human aso i sometimes also bully ppl(bryan)lolx...but i try nt 2 do tat nw :)

in our teenage life , its hard nt 2 go wayward ...pick up bad habits n do things tat are juz nt right,but the important thing is tat as frenz we try 2 them n help them turn back..cause nobody wants or likes 2 see their brothers n sisters head down the path of destruction right?the important thing is 2 give them support , never never turn ur backs on them....they turn back 1 day...even if they dun, then u know tat at least uve tried...

when u do things 4 frenz , all of us hope and wan ppl 2 appreciate wad u have done 4 them...sadly,tats nt the case sometimes....Jesus loved us so much tat he died 4 the world tat hated HIM , did he know tat he many ppl doesnt even care n even think he desereved 2 die(when he did nth wrong) ...yes,Jesus is GOD wad ..know everything...then y he still die 4 us unappreciative humans...the answer i believe is cause of Love....such sacrifice, are we appreciative? i still do things which dishourner his name,sometimes 4getin his love 4 me...wad im tryin 2 say is tat love sld be unconditional...nt somethin u do becasuse it benefits u,or make u "happy"....in this way , tat is true love.....u may be unhappy cause ppl dun apprecate wad u do or make u unhappy,they will understand 1 day...even after we leave this world...

"Our love to God is measured by our everyday fellowship with others and the love it displays."


many days nber come this blog 2 write liaoz.....cause dunno realli wad 2 write,many interestin thing happend , well ill juz write dwn wad i recall....on tuesday i bring shaun cass n tree 2 bible study...after bible study went 2 eat at kfc...on wed ,went 2 funeral of a church sister's , its was a little heart prickin(the situation quite emo) but we were all relieved 2 know tat she's nw in the arms of christ...after which we went 2 watch superman ..which we did nt fnish the show cause we had 2 take the last bus...yesterday, after sch got tution,din wanna go hme so walked 2 mrt wid tiara,amanda n k.w ...talked lot n crapped lot,after which i waited bus wid mac then when i was goin 2 take the bus down tution saw richrd so ask him come y-f(so long nber see him liaoz)...today after sch went 2 posb wid christon 2 go update his address..after whuch i went hme washed up , went 2 meet silvia n cass watch silent hill(erm,quite nice show if u know hw 2 watch)..after which we shopped round(tryin on perfumes :P) then took neoprint then rushed down 2 meet char n dora go play badminton..it was quite funz la...went 2 eat dora's father chicken rice then went hme liaoz..cool day durin the first week at sch..n yes my poa is gettin better(dunno can pass nt la,juz try loz) thanks 2 ppl lyk syam n cass casue they help me alot...thanks palx :)


2day church service is slighty diff ....i was zao dai 4 the day,then i was wearin an all white suit...then many ppl say i look lyk PAP member..lolx aniway 2day 4 china frenz got baptised..hmm a veri happy day 4 them and 4 everyone ...they'll be flyin back 2 china soon ,most of the china frenz..ill miss them,especially yu zhen..cause know her better...church wld be a quieter place cause many ppl leavin...andrew migratin at the end of august..yang ting goin 4 army,well tat's a loss 4 me, cause andrew especially taught me alot bout GOD....everytime wan 2 tell gospel 2 frenz , all i have 2 do is juz bring 2 fellowship then let him do the job...looks like i gotta independent liaoz...but i believe GOD has his own ways la...so follow his will and cant be wrong 1...report card haven sign ..hw my mum dosent even know my trash results, nw muz get her 2 sign when she is slpin..lolx..then hw all nber touch,muz act blur in sch liaoz...poa never learn much, muz drop liaoz...hair haven cut and plus got colour, sure kana caught liaoz....holidaze flys juz lyk tat , thank GOD,4 helpin me learn many things durin this holidays :)


2day..went 2 ice skatin 4 fellowship,de en came down 2 join us later and after playin ice skatin , my leg hurts...my hand hurts 2 cause a splinter got in..after tat went my pops coffeshop 2 eat,ate a quite satisfyin meal ..dunno wad the rest think? aniway, after tat went hme le...i made a decision 2 start life again anew , 2 live life 4 GOD onli...tat decison is made long ago liaoz..but i sorta 4get it after a long time....many things i had b4 were lost , will be lost and will be taken away 4rom me....ive gotta start livin :) ""I have held many things in my hands, and have lost them all; but whatever I have placed in God's hands, that I still possess." Luther, Martin




i didnt do anythin special 2day,at noon i followed frenz go eastpoint eat , while dora n seb cut hair...after tat went arcade then after arcade slacked awhile then went hme 2 rest 4 half hour lyk tat ...
well,somethin happened which made me feel gd inside while i was playin table tennis
tre was this cute little gal 5 years ol , seein me elvin and duncan play ping pong...seein the gal standin 2 close 2 the table , i told her nicely 2 stand at the side n watch us play...she veri guai , reali stand at one corner quietly watch us play...when the ball flew out of the table then she wld help mi 2 pick the ball and come pass it in my hands,then i wld smile at her casue the girl realli so cute nice..then durin my rest time i sat beside her then ask her hw ol she is n wre she studyin , then she answered me wid this squeaky child voice hahahaz...then i lent her my extra bat n ball cause she lyk interested in table tennis ...after awhile , her mom came n fetch her hme...so we waved gdbye 2 each other,then my heart got this sweet feelin cause realli had a nice time wid her... children are so innocent , u treat them gd..they wld treat u well n trust u totally aso ...nt lyk when u deal with adults, sumtimes u treat them gd ..they wld nt aprreciate,instead think u have sum kind of evil motive lyk tat ..haiz
my church gt this toddy called zhen en,then he damm cute 1 , even when he angry aso veri cute lolx ...then he tok veri cute aso tats y i lyk 2 play wid him veri much....i feel tat i n he quite alike in sum ways..tats y we can click well hahahaz...
aniway,after playin table tennis 3 of us went 2 eat , after tat feelin lethargic so went hme liaoz..
hmm , made a song bout JESUS 2day ..thank GOD 4 da inspiration ... :) writin in my other blog 2day made me understand sumthin bout GOD , sometimes GOD uses the things tat happen 2 me 2 let me learn sumthin and more bout GOD , juz lyk the baby gal i met 2day :) made me feel tat GOD is tryin 2 tell me sumtin,tat my mind sld be lyk a child..innocent n pure
mark 10:15 "I can gurantee this truth:whoever doesn't receive the kingdom of God as a little child receives it will never enter it."















2day slacked at hme the whole noon
met up wid poky n hakim 2 go 2 poky's frenz church party
great funz i had , had a great dinner n tre was performance ..skits...games(i won a music cd) and aso made sum realli cool frenz hahaz...then slacked tre until 10 plus..went hme wid sum frenz ..then reach bus stop liaoz
tse wan sae she thirsty then poky offered her drink,then poky treat us aso but is me n hakim share ..lolx saw one of this talented guy tat performed at the party , then he performed 2 us live street dancin ...nt bad veri cool!!
called up zi hao 4 a drink at mac..after crappin awhile went hme liaoz :P
carzy night..
saw a book at life bkshop,thinkin of buyin it when i gt money
when i have money.....



















yesterday was hai sing's band concert
they put up a gd show overall..nice
i slept the whole day b4 goin 2 meet frenz 2 go 2 the concert
4 the 1st half of the show i was wearin contacts so cant realli see clearly
decided 2 take off n change into specs durin breaktime
im here 2 c the concert ...nt 4 fashion parade,so wads the use wearin contacts n nt enjoyin the show....i loved the performance , jas played well....every1 played well in fact
after da concert stayed round n helped out a little..saw zaibon n remembered poa
haven study hw? isit my end? no hope?
after the concert hung out round wid ginahoods n frenz , snapped a few pics hre n tre
sent y.y hme ..then went hme after tat
great night :)


2 days nber went hme le,had a nice slp yesterday....went 2 elvin's hse see world cup,i lost the doubles table tennis match on sunday....felt little sad but after awhile i sorted out my thinkins then okay liaoz.juz a game,got win ggot lose....went 2 e.p wid yang ting , dora ,jas ...eat liaoz then went arcade 4 a game of pool wid jas,quite funz..which after tat went 2 elvin's hse 4 soccer match..tried my hands at dota which i found quite funz 2 play la..watched 2 matches then after tat drank 2 cups of red wine wid elvin then had some chat cause cant sleep....morn , ate breakfast then went hme sleep 1 hour like tat then jin han came my hse , i accompanied him 2 see dental at outram park n i feelin so so so tired...dropped dead when reach hme!! slp till 6 then met up wid frenz go class outin , drank 4 cups of white wine which i think is 2 much 4 me liaoz..my head felt so heavy but i still tryin 2 keep myself sober ....went hme wid greyton poky hanny n ryan,knocked out the minute i reach hme...realli regreted drinkin so much..next time cannot liaoz...never sepnd time wid GOD 4 so long liaoz,feelin bit unhappy...i learnt somethn ..if its nt in christ,then its never realli happy.....








2day is outin day wid sisters fellowship,earlier tat day i was at elvin's hse watchin the world cup ...aniway we went 2 koi fish farm then 2 the orchid garden , had great time n experience ...many ppl bought fishes at the koi farm,i want but no tank at hme so cannot..hiked round the orchid garden cause veri big then we see things like squrriels eatin durians n diff species of flowers n insects...after tat we sit bus went back white sands ..i sing choon ,yang tin,elvin,steph n 3 babes went 2 eat cavana ...then after tat somethin happened tat made me realli unhappy...i and elvin travelled back 2 church 2 practise table tennis ,then tre was this aunty 4rom the eng service..she rudely asked us "wad u doin hre" , then i was thinkin wth sia i tok nicely then she reply in tat f*** up tone...then i say politely "erm, we came hre 2 train our table tennis" then the lady said"no,no,no nt in this hour"in tat sl tone..like she damm big shot...i was shocked by her words sia,cannot play say nicely..no need 2 treat us like dogs,i was wearin contacts at tat time then cannot see tat aunty face ...if nt ill confront her in her church service ...we went community centre then the aunty see us young then let us play 4 free...see even community centre ppl i dunno deserve more respect then tat lady...haiz aniway , we played 4 1 hour lyk tat then went jas hse meet her cause she wanna pass me somethin then i sit 38 went hme liaoz...tml got table tennis doubles wid jacob,chances are slim but ill fight 2 the end... :)


2day is quite diff day 4 me la...cause mornin actually mum supposed 2 go out 2 breakfast wid us ..but end up got work so i and my sis went 2 bugis 2 eat lunch together...we went 2 v8 movie cafe 2 have a veri ex lunch , then after eatin went 2 hab looks at mp3's cause my sis wanna buy a new 1,then after tat went 2 edge walk walk in the end bought a specs frame 4rom 77th strt cause sis got card then inside got value so use los hahahahaz..afetr tat went 2 walk round parco then my sis needa go work liaoz so i went hme ....catch a wink then went 4 tution liaoz,again i squandered all my money 2day nw i onli left 2 dolla..i think i better go work 4 mum tml so i dun hab 2 be lyk a sponge lend money 4rom ppl...after tution went hme then brons called up ask me go drum lesson so i went meet him at tamp..he was wid this guy which later became my frenz..we went 2 a near coffeshp 2 watch wc then after tat went brons hse 2 learn drums liaoz...brons played some songs then ask me 2 play along wid..but i cannot hahahaz rookie onli wan me 2 play hard song liaoz..but nt bad la learn abit..after tat went hme in my frenz pops cabby :)

juz come back 4rom a movie wid fellowship n soccer match wid jie,cass,tree n some new frenz ...
nw listenin 2 my current favourite song by white lion-when the children cry...been listenin it 4 2 weeks liaoz,cant seem 2 get tired of it cause the lyrics realli mean somethin 2 me ,its a dream which everyone want's....aniway , the movie watched 2day is omen..quite a nice show(i misssed the excitin part cause i went 2 the toilet) hahahahaz but i can more or less predict the endin cause its one of those pridictable flicks....went 2 watch soccer match after tat at 85,ive squandered every of my penny in juz a few weeks ..so went 2 watch soccer n havin 2 rely frenz 2 pay 4 food , feelin veri bad le..haiz next time muz treat them gd meal,then if i no money then don go out....this sat goin 2 koi fish farm n orchard garden wid sister's fellowship,its funz 2 go 2 such places once in a while ...realli , its sorta borin always doin things we youngsters always do..shoppin,movies,lan gamin blah blah..its refreshin 2 go visit the simple things in life :) i think ill take out my darlin out 4 some practice,so long nber use it 2 snap pics le dunno wether still in gd condition nt....cause 2 bulky liaoz
i think ill stop stayin up late liaoz,its affectin my health more or less..i have 2 be in tip top condition 2 play in the table tennis match next week...n ya,i remember bro andrew is sick so sisters n bros in christ pls pray 4 GOD 2 alleviate his sufferins n get well soon !!! :)
godspeed

Each day we learn 4rom yesterday of GOD'S great love n care;
And every burden we must face
He'll surely help us bear -D.De Haan


playin volleyball


see tat guy on the tree...tats eugene hahahahahaz !!!! it does nt look realli much but ive tried it..its tough..


yesterday was another "class outin" gene , ken ,hakim,ryan,cass,tree,jie,silvia and me went 2 sentosa in the morn....went 2 siloso beach , sentosa upgrade alot liaoz...i feel tat 2 much upgradin also nt gd , cause will spoil the "feelin" hahahahaz aniway we played volleyball,beach soccer , swimmin , n tree climbin hahahahahahaz eugene is top climber....ryan n jie played round of pool b4 we left,went 2 bedok had dinner after tat ..had my fav carrot cake then we crap crap round then after tat sat a bus down zi jie hse 2 watch w.c wid silvia,tree,cass...somethi happened on the way but im nt goin 2 say wad..aniway reached jie hse then watch w.c , the match was korea vs togo ..then at first we tot togo was brazil then i feelin puzzled cause brazil ppl i familar 1 then in terms of skill also diff hahahaz ..it was until korea scored the first goal then we found out the "brazil" is acutally togo..diaoz" ..stayed at zi jie hse(the gals went hme after the first match) 2 watch the remainin 2 matches...swizz vs france...brazil vs crotia watched all the way...hahaz way 2 go!!! brazil won :)


x-men wannabe's ahahahaz :P\


2day is supposed 2 be doomsday 4 me..but i managed 2 survive table tennis singles ...i beat my opponent(the guy in stripes behind the pic) 2-1 set ..phew !!! nw im in the finals,juz 1 more game n i am the champ..muahahaha!! diaozx.. but tat guy was seriously gd la , a gd sport 2 ..i wld hab lost if he had nt missed a few smacks of his..scary sia his smack :0 aniway the badminton mixed doubles wid charlene we lost,firstly cause we no teamwork..secondly,i play nt well enough..lastly our opponent is strong...aniway,we tried our best so no regrets :P after the match we all went 2 walk walk n eat at tamp..put on contact lens wid the help of yang ting ..thanks:) then we eat subway then walk round then went hme liaoz ..haiz ,funz day...my leg aches...ouch!!

2day woke up late 4 fellowship ..but still went la,then 2day is bible study when i reach then is juz the time de en answered the questions in my head...y we do we live good lives -its because of gratitude 2 GOD ....we are nt judged by our works

GOD'S standard are at war wid sin's standard lets take a look at romans paul says"

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For I am conscious that in me, that is, in my flesh, there is nothing good: I have the mind but not the power to do what is right.

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For the good which I have a mind to do, I do not: but the evil which I have no mind to do, that I do.

wad paul is sayin here is that he does sinful things tat he does nt want 2 do , he do vice versa .. romans chapter 8 states :

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And if Christ is in you, the body is dead because of sin, but the Spirit is life because of righteousness.

yes,believers of CHRIST are nt condemmed

aniway...after bible study we went 2 eat at downtown east , then after tat went back 2 church 2 play table tennis..ask dinesh 2 open the lift 4 us ..then we played 4 an hour lyk tat then suggested we go watch soccer at central together so dinesh me n elvin went 2 watch the match hahaz thre was this man sittin beside me then tre was this part when paraguay had a shot at the goal post n the ball looks lyk it went in but the truth is tat it did nt..so the guy so happy he jumped out of his seat then hab tat clap ad cheer ...then after that the he found out tat nver goal then he paiseh hahahahahahahahaz then fater watchin tat match went eugene hse cause he ask me 2 watch soccer match wid him ..then i thinkin still got match on channel 5 2day meh?then later found out it was a re-run so i slack slack awhile at eugene hse then went hme le...

my opponent tomorrow is veri strong..11 years experience of table tennis ..haiz doomsday :(

"HAPPINESS IS SOMETHIN TAT IS QUITE ILLUSIVE" WILLIAM LANECRAIG

hahaz watchin world cup green eyes ..diaoz


yesterday was cass b.d so we morn go eastpoint eat liaoz straight go cass hse then go draw deco then waited quite a long time then they come back ..then we did a lame surprise then after tat celebrate b.d ..after tat we planned wad 2 do later , we decided 2 go och then after tat watch world cup at thresa hse..went hme sleep then tried 2 put on contact lens but failed cause no skill lolx :0 then after tat met thresa jie n cass at bus stop then went 2 meet eugene n his frenz liaoz ..we did nt even go och in the end cause of certain reasons...then we staraight sat bus went thresa hse watch world cup liaoz watch 2 matches in a row..diaoz so tired when went hme sleep until 4 then went fellowship 2day :P


2day woke up late in the morn ..so never go dnt ..ate lunch wid mum, then after tat play com watch spongebob then go out meet leon cause he want 2 pass me contact lens...went 2 meet jas n dora after tat we went 2 mac n eat then after tat went 2 walk walk round at tm then went 2 cottage pies then after tat jas went tution while i slack around wid dora 4 a few min more then i went 2 meet elvin n justin 4 table tennis trainin...2day i play like shit,wid this kinda standard i sure die durin sunday...sunday will be bloody sunday 4 me...all my matches in one day..all lost in a day..haiz i muz be ready 2 be depressed on tat day liaoz..boo hoo!!! we played past our limit time so had 2 pay extra money haahhahahaz...then after tat went 2 subway then we tok bout our tatics then after tat sat a bus n went hme liaoz ..whoo !!






juz summa pics we took at the pool :)
funz day ....


2day early morn went 4 dnt...workin on my "ra-fish bin" lolx..but quite happy tat i got 2 do so much in 1 day thanks 2 help of z.s n dora :0

after doin dnt , went 2 w.s 2 have lunch wid silvia thresa dora z.s..then later y.y lizhen join us but left soon 4 oral..then saw yan fang n apple so ask them join us then after eatin went hme...

met up wid hakim 4 swimmin then went 2 the swimmin complex wait 4 the gals which arrived late...went swimmin hahaha i cant swim 4 nuts :P then swimmin awhile then go the balcony sun tan..then go swmmin again..then after tat go balcony again take pics lolx...spent half n hour i think takin pictures hahahahahaz lame...after tat went 2 eat nice malay cusine at t.m then eugene came 2 joiin us wanna watch omen..but tickets were almost sold out so we ended up watchin..guess wad? CARS !!! hahahahahaaz nice show aniway ..i lyk this kinda movies, after watchin movie then went hme le..hmm wana read bible le , got table tennis 2omolo muz train harder!!!!

2day is the most sway day 4 me....elvis called me out 4 a movie n i declined cause i am broke n i promised pops tat i wld work 4 him..de en say got bible study but i also declined....nw i hoped tat i went 4 bible study instead...i went 2 work 4 pops at round 5 then somehtin happened tat got me so sad tat i told my parents tat i dun wanna work liaoz ....i almost broke down,so i juz sat at a table n rested my head on it...staring blankly into space ( but the matter tat made me so down was resolved) so i pai seh n sorta regret my actions cause my work attitude sucks....mum 4gave me n she still give me my pay , extra somemore hahahahaz thanks mum :) thanks dad 4 solvin the problem 4 me ....

almost did somthin tat i wld regret in life ....but thanks 2 GOD 4 helpin me get thru ...its lyk i want 2 do somethin wrong but i wont do it cause i know its nt worth it...because all the thing i do nw wld 1 day be judged..n i wld want 2 stand pure n blameless before HIM ...nw tats sommethin i wld want 2 be :) LORD pls help me love u more ....


2day is hair dye day ..lamexx haha aniway syam , liana , thresa , silvia , cass ,eugene , zi jie and hanny came my hse ..but onli syam me cass hanny and zi jie dye hair ..lolx we bought 2 types of colour dye so can do "pattern" my hair is frindge 1 colour the top another colour hahaz but nt realli obvious..aniway it was funz dyein hair 4 ppl..syam hair i help make until lyk pro stylist make 1 hahahahahahaz bhb :p n ya thanks thresa n silvia 4 the bread ..veri nice :) after dyein hair went 2 watch x men 3 wid yang ting guo long , dora n jasy ..the show nt bad ..i lyk alot :) after the show zi hao came 2 join us we walked around tm and century n i had 2 lend money 4rom them cause im broke!! went ya kiun slakc slack then went hme le :) funz day ..


i juz lost the badminton doubles juz nw , but funnily i dun realli feel ani loss..cause the game was fun n thrillin..i never expected tat i wld learn more things bout GOD after the loss in badminton....bao yi n yong ching drove us 2 changi 2 celebrate both of our "losses" hahahaz...after eatin we went 2 a park 2 watch aeroplanes,ended up tokin bou t bgf thingy then yong ching lyk givin us life lessons lolx...after tat he sent us hme in the car we toked bout church then i asked yong ching bout church camp is when ..then tokin tokin the topic changed 2 our chrch then yong ching asked me wad is our misson in life...i replied "spread the gospel" then yong ching said "50% right" then he shared on matthew
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And Jesus came to them and said, All authority has been given to me in heaven and on earth.

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Go then, and make disciples of all the nations, giving them baptism in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit:

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Teaching them to keep all the rules which I have given you: and see, I am ever with you, even to the end of the world.
so i got 2 know more bout GOD 2day...LOVE GOD , LOVE PEOPLE .true there was hatred.but tre was aso love.there was death but there was aso life

okay !! i had enough of stayin at hme liaoz...but stayin at hme 2day realli helps cause i went 2 this web site tat inspires me , it realli gives me strength n determination......i figured tat i dun wana stay at hme durin the holidays liaoz..lyk dun wanna waste holidaze...went 2 dnt this morn , quite happy cause najib transfer song wid me finally ..tat fella realli hab alot of songs in his com sia hahahaz updated my malay folder wid more songs liaoz ..then after dnt went 2 hab lunch :) my day ends simply lyk tat 2day ..but its nt wasted ,caused i learnt somethn great 2day...hmmm..
nt feelin veri gd nw , nw so hungry haben eat dinner yet..ask sis 2 pack food cause she nw at orchard wid ayie susan...i tell her the food muz be
1.famous
2.healthy
3.delicious
wad she will buy?

juz now after tution i decided 2 walk hme , on the way hme i listened the song called "be an example" by the wilds then i tought alot bout my life...the songs says bout bein an example 2 non christians,lettin them see hw jesus have changed and can change a persons life ....am i an example? thinkin bout it,the answer is not realli...hw many times have i heard my frenz say"u are chirstian le , hw can u do this..hw can u do tat " even i sometimes feel tat i sldnt be doin things tat i am nt supposed 2 do..i muz have stumbled many ppl already , haiz.....but i want 2 change startin 2day , ill try...i will be an example 2 all ppl out thre so they can see hw jesus have changed my life and let them know jesus can change their's 2 if they accept him...yes,be an example......ill walk the talk :) Jesus is the answer...:)

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