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Tried to take a picture; Of love
I wanna fill this new frame; Cause We love.
I Am James.
I Am Xiang Zhou.
I Am God's children.
I Am Me.
I wanna fill this new frame; Cause We love.
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ramblings of a teenage guy
I Am James.
I Am Xiang Zhou.
I Am God's children.
I Am Me.
Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a peice of paper; I Will write your name on it.
juz woke up...yest went was feelin bit unhappy over sumthin's..so called out oswald 2 go sumwre 2 chill wid me ...went 2 the "balcony" and slacked tre till the next morn ..
after sch ...went 2 cut hair wid gene
gene rebonded his hair and i futher shortened my hair..
im sayin gd bye 2 long hair 4 quite awhile..
went swimmin wid gene...then met up wid jie and quite alot of peeps
later hao joined us ..then leon joined us later ..
went hme..meaningless life
and ya,wanna thank jie 4 treatin me 2 dinner
altough i was realli nt hungry , thanks bro...
i gotta stand up again .... and stop thinkin bout stupid things
wad is ur's will be ur's
yeah juz nw tok 2 x.y , hahahz dun 4get my prezzie :)
tml goin pit-stop ..hope ill get out of this depressin mood ..
活着不快乐。。那活着是干嘛 ？？
i hate 2dae!!!!
my cca(basketball) sucks , boring ....i guess the ppl tre feel the same way 2
u go tre..shoot sum baskets , then u juz slack around until 6 ...meaningless
but i took the "free" time 2 do my hw so at nyt no nid do :P
after cca,went bible study alone ...
the bookshop was closed and yupz ive got the $ 2 buy the bible...
but ...sadly the bookshop was closed , went 2 bible study without a bible
almost dozed off at the beginning (nt casue it was borin..but cause im so physically drained)
my dozed until my pen dropped and i guessed everyone looked at me..hahahaz
and i prayed tat i will hab strength 2 listen and GOD answered my prayer and i asorb everythin taught 2dae...i prefer monday's bs 2 wed's 1 ..dunno y (but both are good!!) :P
pastor chen asked me hw many ppl come 4 bs 2dae and i said onli me..then he jokingly said "wa , all 空虚 ah ??" hahahaz
nw im feelin tired...zzzz
haiz , 2dae's such a tirin dae at sch ....din slp well last nyt , thinkin bout many things
cant concentrate at sch ...hahaz 2dae poa lesson went 2 "chat corner" wid ayie leon norman and hakim ...lolx toked lotsa stuffz,interstin la :P
went hme straight after sch 2dae...nt feelin well ,saw xy at mrt ..thinkin y she went hme so late ..sec 2 muz be real stressful these daze .., slept till 8 then went 2 buy dinner and met up wid cf and gene 2 study and do hw ...after tat gene went hme and cf went my hse and toked lotsa things,i tell him bout my weakness in maths and he ask me 2 hab confidence in myself and offered 2 teach me :P hahaz thanks bro!!
i actually wanted 2 call elvis 4 jammin 2dae but he nber pick up the phone so ya next tyme maybe ...
2dae's sch's crap , i din know tat tre was gonna be a chem test 2dae and i totally flunked it !! :(
2dae's sch life is okay ...nw startin 2 slack abit liaoz so better buck up !!
went hme wid genie , after restin hme 4 few hours
met up wid hao went 2 chin lien bible college 4 b.s
2dae's bs interestin, i think hao also agrees :p
discussed obut the life of solomon ..realli learnt alot !!
so its def nt a wasted trip :)
many things wanna sae..but who know's my heart better then u GOD..
ppl dun understand,they nber will ....
slept till 10 sumthin ...sch's tiring 2dae,din concentrate well
went hme wid mac ,fei and genie
tired after reachin hme..then slept straight
nw ive nth 2 do ...sianz :s lolx
well these few dae's realli hasnt been goin well ok,yeah ..studyin is smooth and all aniway..chuek fei came my hse do dnt 2 daes ago and yest went 2 tm wid syam and silvia and genie eat lunch and after goin hmewent 2 libary 2 do research on dnt mindmap (and it ended up a total crap）i din complete the thing and worst ..i din even complete 2dae juz finished doin , its crappie ...but it's hard work!!borrowed sum realli great christian books and i borrowed 1 2 cheuk fei,well hope he'll read and get sumthin out of it :)
2dae after sch went gym , at bedok ...first tyme carried so much weightssince i "shrink" by 1cm this year ..ive given up hope on growin taller..lolx :Pwell aniway thanks 2 hao 4 treatin me 2 gym and elvis 4 the towels and the protein powder drinktokin bout the protien powder drink , i din realli lyk it ...but elvis tok bout repair of tissues and stuffso i guessed ill better be safe and juz force it down :shahaz but hope ill train up 4 nafa this year ..i failed my 2.4 at the treadmill ，arghz!! 13 MIN !!muz train more ..
after gym rushed down 2 jin lian bible college 4 the bible study coursethe speakers great , and of course the ppl tre were nice and stuff learnt alot 2dae ..bought another youth bible,given a 30% disc 4 the sis see i young :)hahaz ill try 2 attend every wed if possible..if i realli can handle my work well which i beleive GOD will give me strength :)
juz nw henry asked me bout our fellowshipi told him tat yf wld nt be able 2 understand me well i guess its the same wid many ppl we dun wan ppl 2 see us 4 who we realli arey?we expect ppl 2 judge us ...he said he wants 2 know me more..i told him "no,u will nt want 2 know me 4 who i realli am"im sick and tired of being judgedi know hw it feels so ill do my best nt 2 judge and love ppl 4 the person they arethe song "stained glass masquarade" by casting crowns explains my feelings。。
-Is there anyone that failsIs there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small
Cause when I take a look aroundEverybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong
So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the heart again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade
Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage
The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart
But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be
Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay...
meaningful ?
and ya,im happie tt henry came and toked 2 me and told me his views and stuff
its late..i juz hope i wun fall asleep durin lessons...zzzz
juz came back 4rom the meetin ..
discussed many things bout fellowship
y.y,clarisa and lene went but they joined bs wid the younger grp
henry said the song we made yest was quite okay :p
no money 2dae ..but thank GOD lene lent me money eat !! Thanks sis !!
gene treated me ice cream when goin hme :) thanks bro
wow,ive got lotsa generous fren!! cooool~ hahahz jkjk
feelin lifeless 2dae..hmmz maybe ill go 4 a swim tml if the weathers sunny !!
juz came back 4rom ivy's hse study maths , actually got pics 1 but kana dlt by henry :<
okay,few dae's din blog ... startin of sch is kinda sucky 4 me cause my hair kana caught 4 colour 1st dae !! i ended up forced 2 cut my hair(which is already short) and nw my head looks like coconut !! lolx
syam came my hse dye hair the first dae , then after tat went eat subway wid cassie study chem :)
this year got sum realli great teachers come teach us ..muz study hard !!
tre are teachers like mr lee who encourage me 2 work hard no matter wad this year , also got teacher tryin 2 send the "you got no hope" thingy thru me ....im studyin nt 4 him,im studyin 4 myself and 4 GOD's glory , y the hell sld he care !! things lyk tat spoils my dae..he's been repeatin tat sentence everydae , dosent he even get sick of it ? plssss
2dae's fri,decided 2 hab a break and go out instead of goin hme straight ...
went greyton's hse , after tat went eat wid hao then met up wid elvis 4 a horror movie ..
elvis came my hse 2 compose tune 4 a song i wrote called "person lyk me" ..guess it turned out okay~ but still got room 4 improvements :P
tml got meetin 2 discuss bout y-f activities and changes tat need 2 be made or voiced out ..yeah , hope i got sumthin 2 contribute ...
first dae of the year
went 2 de en hse play tennis
bible study
tok bout many many things
elvin's sis drove us 2 85 eat dinner
then went back played wid babies !!
still nt used 2 short hair :P
2 more daes 2 sch !!
its a new year 2007
and im happie,and i thank GOD 4 everythin
this year flew past soo fast ...many things happened (particularlly at the last 3 months) ,tat GOD made me repent of everythin ive always refused 2 give up..
yest thanksgivin at church was the first tyme i ever broke down in front of the whole church
so many years in church and ive onli cried b4 at the church camp last year in front of few yf ppl,i cried tat time cause ive seen wad a bad testimony ive been as a christian
who knows this year , ill breakdown 4 the same cause ...and i thank GOD 4 tat!!its embarassin 2 cry,especially in front of girls...hahaz :P
yupz..ive also recived much blessings and grace 4rom GOD Ive many frenz around me ...be it sch frenz , chruch fellowship :)
all had given me support and taught me many things..i belive GOD works in a pattern ...HE sets the trials and puts ppl in my life 4 a reasonit affects me somehw way or another,moulds me into a stronger person i am
and i realli realli cant thank GOD enough 4 his unconditional love 4 sumone lyk me
the unhappy things in life is gone and the happie things are kept in my heart
the future is waitin 4 me...GOD has a long road prepared 4 me ahead,ill walk the walk wid JESUS . :)
happie 2007 everyone !!
okies this year's new year was spent wid my church ..its the first tyme and i realli had a great tymeits a great feelin..ive always spent my new year's at noisy places,partyin and stuffz...but all these things areempty...empty...when the party stops and the music ceases,the feelin of gulit comes in..ive realised tat u dun need 2 get all partyin and stuffz 2 be happie durin new year countdwnits great juz 2 spend a quiet ..peaceful new year , wid ppl u love and care 4 !! happiness is the LORD!!aniway we went 2 old supreme court tre see fireworks then after tat went 2 eat at aljunied then hme, great tyme !! ive slpt the best this nyt :p a new year marks a new me!
I've got a peice of paper; I Will write your name on it.
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Tuesday, January 30, 2007 ( 9:33 PM )
juz woke up...yest went was feelin bit unhappy over sumthin's..so called out oswald 2 go sumwre 2 chill wid me ...went 2 the "balcony" and slacked tre till the next morn ..toked bout many things and ya , i guess im okay already ...
din slp the whole nyt , so i was feelin lyk a zombie at sch 2dae...cant concentrate properly
but still managed 2 asorb abit somhw
i muz be mad 2 ton durin a sch nyt ..well,itll be the 1st tyme and the last tyme
"Do nt complain tt rose bushes has thorns.But rejoice tt thorn bushes have roses.."
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Sunday, January 28, 2007 ( 2:23 AM )
well...hmmz 2dae went 2 this restraunt(pit-stop) play board games , hahahaz its was funz la..the food was ok and since the whole(almost) yf attended this outin,im realli happie :)
thank y-f 4 subsidy 50% of our total expenditures , cool !! we played charade,connect 5,"uno",simon says..hahahaz then we chose a nice spot 2 paste our pictures and wrote sumthin on the wall :) nice ??
i told yf bout this short film i want 2 make ...but guessed they take it tat im crappin again ...oh well ~ im gonna make it , no matter wad it takes ..or hw long its gonna take
went vivo , met up wid mum and sis and pig sis
went eat dinner after tat mum went work while the 3 of us shopped round..
bought new bath soap(red wine) smells great .. sum groceries and almost bought this jeans 4rom pull and bear , but..no size , haiz 50 percent lei :(
well , went hme feelin tired ...after tat went play nyt bb wid gene jj , seb , elvis and genie
i guessed im bit rough while playin 1 on 1 wid elvis 2dae..so ya im sorrie bro
many ppl around me ..goin thru a bad time, well , cheer up!! tml will be better !! :)
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Friday, January 26, 2007 ( 11:33 PM )
after sch ...went 2 cut hair wid gene
gene rebonded his hair and i futher shortened my hair..
im sayin gd bye 2 long hair 4 quite awhile..
went swimmin wid gene...then met up wid jie and quite alot of peeps
later hao joined us ..then leon joined us later ..
went hme..meaningless life
and ya,wanna thank jie 4 treatin me 2 dinner
altough i was realli nt hungry , thanks bro...
i gotta stand up again .... and stop thinkin bout stupid things
wad is ur's will be ur's
yeah juz nw tok 2 x.y , hahahz dun 4get my prezzie :)
tml goin pit-stop ..hope ill get out of this depressin mood ..
活着不快乐。。那活着是干嘛 ？？
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Monday, January 22, 2007 ( 10:39 PM )
i hate 2dae!!!!
my cca(basketball) sucks , boring ....i guess the ppl tre feel the same way 2
u go tre..shoot sum baskets , then u juz slack around until 6 ...meaningless
but i took the "free" time 2 do my hw so at nyt no nid do :P
after cca,went bible study alone ...
the bookshop was closed and yupz ive got the $ 2 buy the bible...
but ...sadly the bookshop was closed , went 2 bible study without a bible
almost dozed off at the beginning (nt casue it was borin..but cause im so physically drained)
my dozed until my pen dropped and i guessed everyone looked at me..hahahaz
and i prayed tat i will hab strength 2 listen and GOD answered my prayer and i asorb everythin taught 2dae...i prefer monday's bs 2 wed's 1 ..dunno y (but both are good!!) :P
pastor chen asked me hw many ppl come 4 bs 2dae and i said onli me..then he jokingly said "wa , all 空虚 ah ??" hahahaz
nw im feelin tired...zzzz
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Sunday, January 21, 2007 ( 10:21 PM )
well , 2dae's went swmmin in the morn seein the nice sun ...after tat went church , cldnt attend bs 2dae cause im clebebratin my sis bd...
went 2 a japanese restraunt , ayie nancy's treat ..ate till bloated,discussed bout my bd plans...hmmz nt confirm yet,maybe itll juz be a simple 1 this year ..
dunno y i get angry easily these few dae's , sorrie 2 anyone if ive hurt u :)
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( 12:19 AM )
ermz ...2dae's simple , went swimmin at 10 plus(although i was suppose 2 go at 8 wid elvis but overslept) met up wid elvis at the pool then went sun tannin...after bout an hour,i met rony at the balcony haha so tok wid him 4 20 min then after tat i went church study liaoz//
study 4 awhile then prepared 4 bs ..2dae's is on the book of galatians ..got quite an insight of the book..after tat went play captian b awhile then went 201 eat dinner...thanks zhi hao 4 the drinks and dinner , thanks 2 jess 4 the bus fare,thanks 2 yc 4 the ice cream ...hahahaz (i no money 2dae) :s
met up wid gene and jie...played midnyt bb again , wid elvis hao genie and jie...tiring
有些事。。。想说。。可是。。。。
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Saturday, January 20, 2007 ( 1:37 AM )
juz came back 4rom midnyt bb ...
super tired nw , tml goin sun tannin (if tre's sun la ) lolx
=k
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Friday, January 19, 2007 ( 11:37 PM )
hahaz ... juz came back hme , okies my class went 2 tp 2dae and it was quite funz in a way la ...class outing hahahaz so long nber hab class outin liaoz , but this tyme is onli 11 ppl go ...hmmz the courses tre realli dun interest me much , maybe im tat nth appeals 2 me kinda person ...i still hope i can be a missonary like corrie ten boom , or hab a job tat helps ppl and stuff hahahz
tyme flies fast at sch 2dae ..hmmz i always look 4ward 2 the weekends wre i can play and maybe enjoy or relax myself abit out of the endless studyin cycle :s
went swimmin after tp,swam 4 around 1 hr 30 min plus then went eat dinner ...shopped around and after tat went henry hse 2 play bb , hahahz funz!!
kkz // elvis and gene nw playin bb downstairs ..gtg join them 4 2nd round of midnyt bb liaoz :)
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Thursday, January 18, 2007 ( 9:31 PM )
haiz , 2dae's such a tirin dae at sch ....din slp well last nyt , thinkin bout many things
cant concentrate at sch ...hahaz 2dae poa lesson went 2 "chat corner" wid ayie leon norman and hakim ...lolx toked lotsa stuffz,interstin la :P
went hme straight after sch 2dae...nt feelin well ,saw xy at mrt ..thinkin y she went hme so late ..sec 2 muz be real stressful these daze .., slept till 8 then went 2 buy dinner and met up wid cf and gene 2 study and do hw ...after tat gene went hme and cf went my hse and toked lotsa things,i tell him bout my weakness in maths and he ask me 2 hab confidence in myself and offered 2 teach me :P hahaz thanks bro!!
i actually wanted 2 call elvis 4 jammin 2dae but he nber pick up the phone so ya next tyme maybe ...
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007 ( 10:27 PM )
2dae's sch's crap , i din know tat tre was gonna be a chem test 2dae and i totally flunked it !! :( and the physics test din study aso ...flunked !!
i realised hw weak was my english paper 2 ...got boderline pass , haiz ...realli slakin liaoz , cannot !! muz preservere :P
ok 2dae after sch went popular wid cf and he bought me pens wid his popular voucher !! thanks bro ...hahaz but cannot be counted as bd present lolx 2 bad!! :P
and ya hanny waited wid me 4 christon and rony(who arrived half hour late) and thanks 2 hanny 4 waitin wid me although i asked him 2 go hme first ..he insisted on waitin wid me ..thanks bro !!
went 2 christon hse 2 play 2dae since his parents nt at hme...so went gym wid rony and christon , wow !! rony's so muscular hahaz i wished i had muscles lyk him hahahaz ..ok so poky me ,christon , hakim and rony went 2 swim after bout 1 hrs of gym ...the poool was 2 metres deep , and i cant realli swim well (actually i dun realli know hw 2 swim la ) but i din care and juz jumped in and tried 2 keep myself afloat ...i was doin ok when poky suddenly fell into the pool and his specs dropped into the water ...i burst out laughin hahahaz cannot control my body and i started laughin while sinkin , christon had 2 come save me if nt ill hab drowned hahahz ..poky almost killed me !! After swimmin went 2 sauna ...at a room of 60 degrees celcius we all sang songs npcc songs , josh gorbon , howie day, cascada hahahaz we all managed 2 endure 4 30 min except 4 poky who failed the "test"and went out after 20 min but he joined us after restin awhile la ...when we went out of tat oven we were lyk out of the bath (see pic below) covered in sweat and after tat went 2 swim awhile then went back 2 chris hse ...gtta leave cause his sis comin hme early, i din hab money and christon lent me 5 dolla 2 eat :) thanks bro !! went 2 cavana eat wid rony , kim , poky then went hme liaoz ...whoo,tired and bit dizzy nw :s
ok a funny thing...at class 2dae,hakim suddenly went 2 the toilet and it *seemed 2 me tat he was cryin..so i went out and asked him "hey bro , u ok nt ...y 2dae so EMO??" he said "ok...no la nth .." so i *guessed he got sumthin's tat din wanna share so din ask...after sch at canteen eatin tat tyme he sit opposite me then i asked him "bro,stress ah ?" then he looked at me sae "ya,stress la !! " ok so i garnered tt he weeped cause he felt tt he cldnt complete this maths sum then made him SUPER stressed tat he cant take it ..so he cried...ok, so later in the dae in the sauna i asked hakim again .."hey , y u cry juz nw?tell me whole story" he replied " i sneezed until i cry la , got flu " i was ": wth ... hahaz so i sorta misunderstood the whole dae。。。stupid ！！！
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Monday, January 15, 2007 ( 10:57 PM )
2dae's sch life is okay ...nw startin 2 slack abit liaoz so better buck up !!
went hme wid genie , after restin hme 4 few hours
met up wid hao went 2 chin lien bible college 4 b.s
2dae's bs interestin, i think hao also agrees :p
discussed obut the life of solomon ..realli learnt alot !!
so its def nt a wasted trip :)
many things wanna sae..but who know's my heart better then u GOD..
ppl dun understand,they nber will ....
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Sunday, January 14, 2007 ( 10:06 PM )
okies 2dae's cool , cause went chruch and tre's this gal tat hai yan sis bought 2 church believed in christ :) she's a nice gal , veri happie 4 her ！！
went 2 eat subway wid hao in da morn ...sis asked me 2 eat bf wid her but i was 2 lazy and decided 2 slp awhile more :p
hao's tokin bout wether i wld hab the money 2 buy bible on wed nt ..and seriously, im unsure bout raisin the money...bt after thinkin bout it , i decided tat money does nt belong 2 me..it belongs 2 GOD and cash sld always be the least poiint 2 consider...i believe GOD will provide 4 me !!
ok church ended and im glad seb came 2dae :) im realli happie ..i offered 2 gib computer lesson's 2 the china bro's and sis in my church tat want 2 learn computer ..hmmz , but haben ask pops yet , ill confirm wid them next week :P i saw a brother in my church wid a bible case which looked cool and nice so i decided ill buy it if i had the money ...ok so after tat went 2 century wid gene , elvin , hao , henry and seb , ate ljs and walked round ...i saw ayie susan , then i meekly asked her wether she had bought b.d prezzie 4 me ? then she said no , wad ya wan ? hahaz so i told her tat i lacked this bible case and viola she bought 1 veri nice bible case 4 me at life bookshop (see!! GOD provides) aniway thanks 2 ayie susan !! :) went 2 playground fooled around then after seb and gene bought wallet ..went hme
arghx !! my muscle aches ...tml still hab p.e , basket-ball cca and goin gym ryt after tt...hahaz my body's gonna break :P
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Saturday, January 13, 2007 ( 10:47 PM )
well , 2dae's games dae 4 yf ..and realli had funz , played many games lyk soccer,captain ball and table tennis ...hui zhen and caroline came 2dae, hmmz yeah haben seen them 4 long tyme le hope they can come 2 church more often :)
earlier morn ..went 2 hab breakfast wid jie and gene , after tat walked round century ...saw bronson,he asked me y inber go support his jammin room , i got no band wad hw 2 support ? lolx then i told him i wanted 2 form a band...and asked him 2 keep a lookout 4 me :P uncle gilbert wan 2 learn guitar ..yeah !! hahaz i support next tyme form band wid me :P
syam msg'ed me ask me go out but i din see the msg cause i left my hp in bag ..then nt free 2dae aso :P sorrie sis , next tyme k ? :)
ayie susan came church find me ..then i rmemebred gosh !! it's iris b.d 2dae ...and ive 4gotten clean bout it,so had 2 go celebrate at sakura downtown ...then i asked ayie nancy help me keep a lookout 4 spongebob bedsheet , hehe i throwin her hint :P lolx
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( 1:27 AM )
so went 2 s.c hse 2dae 4 meetin
tok bout things 2 improve yf ..
dinner was nice :)
ive gotta save up 4 my teen bible
27 bucks...tat's alot considered tat im quite broke nw
started on this new book bout the generations of youth ...veri inspirin
juz came back 4rom playin midnyt bb wid genie and jie !! hahaz had funz ..did super lotsa punishments when the bb din go in the hoop :p lolx super tired nw...
你是我的所有，这世有你以足够
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Thursday, January 11, 2007 ( 11:08 PM )
slept till 10 sumthin ...sch's tiring 2dae,din concentrate well
went hme wid mac ,fei and genie
tired after reachin hme..then slept straight
nw ive nth 2 do ...sianz :s lolx
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( 12:35 AM )
well these few dae's realli hasnt been goin well ok,yeah ..studyin is smooth and all aniway..chuek fei came my hse do dnt 2 daes ago and yest went 2 tm wid syam and silvia and genie eat lunch and after goin hmewent 2 libary 2 do research on dnt mindmap (and it ended up a total crap）i din complete the thing and worst ..i din even complete 2dae juz finished doin , its crappie ...but it's hard work!!borrowed sum realli great christian books and i borrowed 1 2 cheuk fei,well hope he'll read and get sumthin out of it :)
2dae after sch went gym , at bedok ...first tyme carried so much weightssince i "shrink" by 1cm this year ..ive given up hope on growin taller..lolx :Pwell aniway thanks 2 hao 4 treatin me 2 gym and elvis 4 the towels and the protein powder drinktokin bout the protien powder drink , i din realli lyk it ...but elvis tok bout repair of tissues and stuffso i guessed ill better be safe and juz force it down :shahaz but hope ill train up 4 nafa this year ..i failed my 2.4 at the treadmill ，arghz!! 13 MIN !!muz train more ..
after gym rushed down 2 jin lian bible college 4 the bible study coursethe speakers great , and of course the ppl tre were nice and stuff learnt alot 2dae ..bought another youth bible,given a 30% disc 4 the sis see i young :)hahaz ill try 2 attend every wed if possible..if i realli can handle my work well which i beleive GOD will give me strength :)
juz nw henry asked me bout our fellowshipi told him tat yf wld nt be able 2 understand me well i guess its the same wid many ppl we dun wan ppl 2 see us 4 who we realli arey?we expect ppl 2 judge us ...he said he wants 2 know me more..i told him "no,u will nt want 2 know me 4 who i realli am"im sick and tired of being judgedi know hw it feels so ill do my best nt 2 judge and love ppl 4 the person they arethe song "stained glass masquarade" by casting crowns explains my feelings。。
-Is there anyone that failsIs there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small
Cause when I take a look aroundEverybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong
So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the heart again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade
Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage
The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart
But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be
Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay...
meaningful ?
and ya,im happie tt henry came and toked 2 me and told me his views and stuff
its late..i juz hope i wun fall asleep durin lessons...zzzz
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Saturday, January 06, 2007 ( 11:13 PM )
juz came back 4rom the meetin ..
discussed many things bout fellowship
y.y,clarisa and lene went but they joined bs wid the younger grp
henry said the song we made yest was quite okay :p
no money 2dae ..but thank GOD lene lent me money eat !! Thanks sis !!
gene treated me ice cream when goin hme :) thanks bro
wow,ive got lotsa generous fren!! cooool~ hahahz jkjk
feelin lifeless 2dae..hmmz maybe ill go 4 a swim tml if the weathers sunny !!
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( 12:56 AM )
juz came back 4rom ivy's hse study maths , actually got pics 1 but kana dlt by henry :<
okay,few dae's din blog ... startin of sch is kinda sucky 4 me cause my hair kana caught 4 colour 1st dae !! i ended up forced 2 cut my hair(which is already short) and nw my head looks like coconut !! lolx
syam came my hse dye hair the first dae , then after tat went eat subway wid cassie study chem :)
this year got sum realli great teachers come teach us ..muz study hard !!
tre are teachers like mr lee who encourage me 2 work hard no matter wad this year , also got teacher tryin 2 send the "you got no hope" thingy thru me ....im studyin nt 4 him,im studyin 4 myself and 4 GOD's glory , y the hell sld he care !! things lyk tat spoils my dae..he's been repeatin tat sentence everydae , dosent he even get sick of it ? plssss
2dae's fri,decided 2 hab a break and go out instead of goin hme straight ...
went greyton's hse , after tat went eat wid hao then met up wid elvis 4 a horror movie ..
elvis came my hse 2 compose tune 4 a song i wrote called "person lyk me" ..guess it turned out okay~ but still got room 4 improvements :P
tml got meetin 2 discuss bout y-f activities and changes tat need 2 be made or voiced out ..yeah , hope i got sumthin 2 contribute ...
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Monday, January 01, 2007 ( 11:17 PM )
first dae of the year
went 2 de en hse play tennis
bible study
tok bout many many things
elvin's sis drove us 2 85 eat dinner
then went back played wid babies !!
still nt used 2 short hair :P
2 more daes 2 sch !!
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( 10:37 PM )
its a new year 2007
and im happie,and i thank GOD 4 everythin
this year flew past soo fast ...many things happened (particularlly at the last 3 months) ,tat GOD made me repent of everythin ive always refused 2 give up..
yest thanksgivin at church was the first tyme i ever broke down in front of the whole church
so many years in church and ive onli cried b4 at the church camp last year in front of few yf ppl,i cried tat time cause ive seen wad a bad testimony ive been as a christian
who knows this year , ill breakdown 4 the same cause ...and i thank GOD 4 tat!!its embarassin 2 cry,especially in front of girls...hahaz :P
yupz..ive also recived much blessings and grace 4rom GOD Ive many frenz around me ...be it sch frenz , chruch fellowship :)
all had given me support and taught me many things..i belive GOD works in a pattern ...HE sets the trials and puts ppl in my life 4 a reasonit affects me somehw way or another,moulds me into a stronger person i am
and i realli realli cant thank GOD enough 4 his unconditional love 4 sumone lyk me
the unhappy things in life is gone and the happie things are kept in my heart
the future is waitin 4 me...GOD has a long road prepared 4 me ahead,ill walk the walk wid JESUS . :)
happie 2007 everyone !!
okies this year's new year was spent wid my church ..its the first tyme and i realli had a great tymeits a great feelin..ive always spent my new year's at noisy places,partyin and stuffz...but all these things areempty...empty...when the party stops and the music ceases,the feelin of gulit comes in..ive realised tat u dun need 2 get all partyin and stuffz 2 be happie durin new year countdwnits great juz 2 spend a quiet ..peaceful new year , wid ppl u love and care 4 !! happiness is the LORD!!aniway we went 2 old supreme court tre see fireworks then after tat went 2 eat at aljunied then hme, great tyme !! ive slpt the best this nyt :p a new year marks a new me!
If we; Should be getting under
These sheets; We could lie in this bed; And we lie there to see the stars.
These sheets; We could lie in this bed; And we lie there to see the stars.
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i think they call it freedom of speech